Soft downy hair tickles my arm, and I watch as she wiggles, wavering between squeezing out a few more moments of playtime or succumbing to the heaviness falling on her lids. Her eyes blink slowly, and she smiles from behind a pink paci. The blink gets longer. I know it is coming, and I wait for it.
The wait isn’t long; seconds later her lids stay shut, and her arm rises and creeps closer until I feel tiny fingers walking up my face. Then she rubs. She grabs my chin, glides across my cheek, finds my nose, and goes back again. It’s a familiar dance. When my tiny daughter can’t see me anymore, she reaches out to feel me and make sure I’m there.
She and I are similar. I want to see God. Within the depths of my heart, there is a need to know He is nearby. In my Heavenly Father’s presence, I feel security. He has promised never to leave me or forsake me; even still, I struggle to close my eyes and stand on faith.
Like my infant child, I fight shutting my lids. I need to see God. I thrash about trying desperately not to lose sight. My Father is patient. He holds me in His embrace until finally, I relax and stand on the promises I know to be true.
When I can’t see God, I breathe in deep and feel His presence.
How about you? Are you walking in faith or are you depending on your sight? There are times when God is silent, and in that quiet, He calls us to a deeper place where we fully trust in Him. If you are struggling in your faith, close your eyes, breath in deep, and call to Him. He is there.
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV